4/5/09

you really never know whats going to happen next...
life is so unexpected
live it to the fullest, always.

rest in paradise, jon saligumba.

rollercoaster

its so hot and cold with you
always has its ups and its definite downs
youre good when you wanna be good
but youre never consistent
its never stable
but what do i expect from you?
it should be nothing
yet i still do because your actions speak otherwise
it completely goes against what you say
you tell me what it is you want
and you do something totally different
actions speak louder than words right?
i know im gonna look back on this
and just think of it as another one of my silly flings that was not even a big deal
or am i?
maybe im just overthinking things
cuz when im alone with nothing to do...
this is what goes through my mind
i know what i need to do
yet im not doing it
what the fuck.
arent we supposed to learn from past mistakes?
shouldnt we know what to stay away from in the future?
that way we'll avoid hurting our damn selves
"stay away from him"
"hes no good"
"youre just wasting your time"
"get out now"
a guy could be wrapped up in damn caution tape for all i care
straight up warnings
and im STILL LURED IN every damn time
stupid stupid stupid
they say go with the flow
just "see what happens"
but its kind of hard once you start caring for the person
whats a girl to do....
naw fuck that, i know.
suck it up
screw what my 'heart' says cuz sometimes it just leads you to a bunch of bullshit
and fucking DO IT.